My ears pop, the world turns grey...

...and I get a strong feeling of Deja Vu. Suddenly I am scared. I almost panic. Being on the phone and having to hold an intelligent conversation suddenly seems impossible. I can feel my legs turn weak and fear swamp my brain.

It lasts a few seconds, but in my mind it leaves behind a wave of destruction in its wake like a tidal wave. I wonder if it is because of occassionally smoking up and tripping a couple of times.

Whatever it is, it is scary. It makes me feel that our world is so perilous. That I could wake up any second and find myself in a world that is like russian dolls - open one and you find another and then another...

Cartier has stopped making pearl tipped cigarettes. Bought a carton last weekend after months of searching and lit up immediately and I was intensely disappointed. Sigh. This looks like the end of my cigarette habit. Of course, unless I discover another brand that I can come to like as much - which seems highly unlikely.

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