What is real?

Remember the line in The Matrix where Neo says that he isn't sure whether he is awake or is dreaming. And the other guy responds saying that he has that kind of feeling all the time ;-) Well - i'm sure everybody has times like that. Lately i've been feeling a lot like that - my reality seems strangely unreal. I can almost sense what is gonna happen next - sort of like deja vu u could say. But it is not really deja vu either because what i sense is not one thing that is likely to happen, but several different things of which some seem more probable. It is a bit like Richard Bach's concept of parallel existences. If i make this decision now, my reality changes into something else than what it would have become if i were to choose something else. And it is not just one happening, i see the impacts of this decision snowballing - exerting more and more power over my distant future. Paradoxical, but true: sometimes your immediate decisions which may seem trivial will have a profound impact on your life much later on. Haruki Murakami's writing seems more appealing by the day ;-) Even 2 years back i'm not sure i'd have enjoyed them, but now thanks to Arjun i've discovered a really wonderful writer ! This has come at just the right time - when i've begun to introspect and analyze things better.

Watched "Good Morning, Vietnam" again on TV after nearly 9 years after i had 1st seen it. Strangely i remembered almost every single line from the movie though i had seen it only that once (before last week) - guess that must be bcoz i really loved the movie the 1st time i saw it. It is still really high up on my list of favourite movies. What i love about Robin Williams movies (and i'm not talking about his crappy slapstick ones like 'Mrs Doubtfire', but 'Good Morning Vietnam' and 'The World According to Garp' - which incidentally is the best movie adaptation of a book that i've seen) is the tinge of sadness that he injects into them, interspersed with the humor - hindi movie buffs might recognise this as Raj Kapoor's style ;-) Whatever happens, wherever you are, you got to maintain a sense of humor. Life may be grim at times, but cribbing about it will just make you feel worse. btw i'm on a roll now - been having some really nice experiences over the last 2-3 weeks. Hope it lasts!

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