I think that i've come pretty close to one in the last few months. If I had been American, i'd have gone through half a dozen shrinks by now. But being in India, where people don't even understand the difference between psychoanalysts and psychotherapists, i haven't gone to one yet. To help me cope with the mess that i've made of my life, i turn to friends, family, and a lot of introspection. Add dollops of self-indulgence, and you got one sure-fire cocktail that'll lift you up ;-)
It was my friends at K who first started calling me "The Yank". I've been wondering how i've come to have a worldview (to borrow a much abused term, but one that sums up what I mean so well) that is very different from other people around me. My parents never advised me, or talked about things that really matter. We did spend quality time, but not ever discussing serious things, at least, not while I was growing up. My main source of guidance for life has been books. And having grown up on a diet of reading that had not anything remotely connected to India, perhaps it is no surprise that I've not really fit in well anywhere - except in school. There it is again - the school. I still wonder if I'd really have been the same kind of person if I'd not been in that school, or even that particular batch.
I've never had to deal with so much ncertainty before. Right now I have no clue where my life is going. No idea about what sort of job and life I'm going to have even 3 months from now. Exciting - definitely. But also unsetttling, even worrying.
ubergeek, the
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Hey welcome to the club. Buddy it is the uncertainties that make it all so interesting - the struggle, the trauma, the whole frustration. At least I have come to believe that, and live with it. There is a solution. It will appear when it deems fit. Till then - chin up and balls to the world.
Hi Kraz. Well - till now i had faced uncertainty about whether i would get where i wanted. Now the uncertainty is, for the first time, also about where I want to go from here ;-) That is curiously unsettling for somebody like me who had taken pride in knowing exactly what he wanted
ubergeek, the
hey ubergeek, the
didn't know u were bk online till i read ur mail to the grp... been a long time... nyways, itz nice to read u again. :)
and btw, life sucks big time! tip: never come to us if u dont want moolah.. :(
And I called it restlessness what you called uncertainty!!!
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