The rollercoaster ride

Last year has been, well, rather eventful, to put it mildly. For the first time in my life, I started understanding who I really am and started to be comfortable in my own skin. What started off the whole trip was "Siddhartha". I realized that other people were as confused and worried about life as I am. Particularly the ones who are searching for self-fulfillment and the ONE relationship that will make them happy. Teenage angst all over again or quarter life crisis? Whatever it is, I've been trying to get in touch with what (and who) really makes me happy. Taking stock now, can't say that I fared too bad. Not a bad year by the end of it.

I have not been happier since my early childhood days. I still hate my job, but music and some really good moments have helped smooth over that.

But I think that I am still rather insensitive. I couldn't sense that someone, whom I rate as one of my best friends, was upset. I did notice a certain melancholia, but put that down to something else that I knew about. Ought to have realized that not being able to stand being around people whom you don't like is definitely a sign of recent heartbreak. At least, it is for me. I think I let you down there. I know that I'd have confided in you, but maybe you are the type who prefers to work things out on your own. It soothes me have people who love me lend me a shoulder to cry on.

One of my favourite songs. I hope that you like it too.

A Shoulder To Cry On
(Tommy Page)

Life is full of lots of up and downs
but the distance feels further
when it's headed for the ground
and there's nothing more painful
than to let your feeling's take
you down

It's so hard to know
the way you feel inside
when there's many thoughts
and feelings that you hide
but you might feel better
if you let me walk with you
by your side

And when you need
A shoulder to cry on
when you need
a friend to rely on
and the whole world is gone
you won't be alone
'cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be your friend to rely on
When the whole world's gone
you won't be alone 'cause I'll be there

All of the times
when everything is wrong
and you're feeling like
there's no use going on
You can't give it up
I'll help you work it out
and carry on

Side by side
with you till the end
I'll always be the one
to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
Everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone, you won't be alone
'cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be your friend to rely on
When the whold world is gone, You won't be alone
'cause I'll be there
You'll have my shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one to rely on
When the whole world is gone, you won't be alone
'cause I'll be there

And when the whole world's gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on

Don't deny me that if you think that we are anything close to being best friends! After all, you'd have done the same for me. You already have, haven't you!

ubergeek, the